MY EXPERIENCES OF GOD

For most of us whatever be the age, trying to find God has is an on-going journey. Being born in a very religious but an extremely family was a matter of great luck. Whereas the approach to life was all value based; sharing; empathy; compassion; athithi devo bhava; respect for elders, teachers was taken for part of life. One learnt it without being taught. It was a cocooned life with mother being the anchor. She was hardly educated but worldly a very wise lady. At the young impressionable age of ten I moved to a Sainik School hostel and thereafter for next five decades it was the cocooned life of uniform.

During the journey through the uniformed life there were challenges and dilemmas. Married life, kids and their growth was an interesting journey of struggle, sacrificing own desires for the others. Some successes some failures as in any life but being from the most difficult service of an infantry soldier where one had numerous close encounters with death but survived. During the service one met people from prehistoric tribes of Andamans to foreigners of almost of the whole world. On the whole life was very kind and growth very satisfying.

On the spiritual journey, I was extremely lucky to meet great personalities like HH The Dalai Lama; Amarjyoti; Radha swami the present and the previous head; Parthasarty Rajagopalachari, Swami Ramdev amongst others. Practised Shiv, Durga bhakti; Radha swami; sahaj marg, Vipasana; pranic healing; meditation on heart, breath, third eye and read lots of books in search of that entity called God. Since my wife is a diehard Durga devotee has had her share of visions, experiences and tremendous unshakeable faith in the Goddess. But we kept following our paths and kept experimenting with new ideas, philosophies and wisdom which came to us from friends, relatives and others in life.

Coming to my experiences, I have not seen God even in my dreams or in a drugged state but felt help coming whenever it was sought. Weather a coincidence or divine but intervention or help did appear from unexpected quarters and insurmountable problems just vanished miraculously. Some say God is experience, may be then I have experienced him.

Coming to the other important aspect of happiness or bliss, something we all seek. My feel is calming the aware mind to stillness is the key to inner journey. Weather one follows meditation, satsang, parvachan; drugs of any kind- the challenge is the same. Emptying the mind of uncontrolled thoughts and slowly regulating the thought. Control of mind without the help of drugs or extreme tragedy is a very difficult but not impossible. Needs patience, discipline and faith and it happens very very slowly but it does happen. Once that is accomplished one does feel fleeting glimpses of deep sense of contentment and peace from within for very short duration. If God is within then probably this may be HE.